Thinking out loud ~ Thankful edition

Yesterday sucked for me...I have days when everything seems impossible where if I take a shower it is a huge accomplishment. A couple years ago I was stuck in bed for days on end with depression, without going into all the details, I just wanted to die.  I got to rock bottom and learned there was a deeper level of rock bottom.  So today I have so much to be thankful for. 

Yesterday, is gone, today is my bitch!!!  

I am thankful for my children who never give up on me!!!

I am thankful for my doctors who listen to me and keep me supplied with Ambien. 

I am thankful for Prissy, she is my sunshine when skies are gray!!!

I am thankful for Pinterest. Why?  I think it is the easiest way to type in a word and there are literally thousands of motivational, inspirational, and humorous things that instantaneously lift my spirits...

I am thankful for not having to work anymore!!!!!!  This is what has ultimately changed my life the past couple years. I have simplified my life so I do not have to.  I have worked ever since I was able to work.  I went into the military when I was 18, spent the next twenty three years in law enforcement.  I was tired, I was depressed, I was just not enjoying life or my family.  Things had to change.

I am thankful that my car gets me to and from where I need to be.  I am thankful that I have good running socks and shoes.  I am thankful that I have raised my children to realize that things are just that things.  Time is the most priceless possession there is and to use it wisely.  I am thankful for peanut butter.  I am thankful that I sit here today and type this list because I never thought I would be able to sit and be happy.  I am thankful that God chose to make me live when I wanted to die.  I am thankful for my story. I am thankful that I walked away from police work and the only injuries I ever sustained were some bruises and cuts.  I am thankful that the bullets that went flying in my direction never hit me.  I am thankful that after I have put my friends through so much hell the last few years they are still by my side. I am thankful that six months ago I met my friend, Cat, who had been fighting addiction for years, is now six months clean and a friend for life.  I am thankful for an ice cold Coke after a long run.

One day I will detail my fight with depression, hopefully sometime this month because September is suicide prevention month.  The statistic that always sticks in my mind about this month is 22 Veterans will commit suicide today.  Which is 8,030 U S Veterans a year.  This is a problem.

I am thankful that my readers will not judge!!!!! 

What are a few things you are thankful for today?

Were you aware of the staggering suicide rate for U S Veterans?

Have you or a family member ever suffered from depression?

Who knew? Wednesday

I am a firm believer in learning something new everyday.  So here are a few who knew facts about myself and then I have some random who knew, which are fun!!!!

Who knew?  I was in the U S Army for seven years as a Military Police Officer.

Who knew?  I was a police officer in Atlanta, GA for 15 years.

Who knew?  I have three sons 22, 21, and 12.

Who knew?  I started running because I was tired of suspects running and I could not catch them. There was nothing better than looking at a 20 year old male and saying hahaha I am almost twice your age and a female, and I still caught your ass.

Who knew?  I suffer from major depressive disorder, PTSD, and social anxiety. I am currently not depressed, lol

Who knew?  I was voted the class clown in high school, and I was super proud!!!

Who knew?  That while typing this blog I heard the schoolbus drive by and realized that Zachary was still in bed, first time for everything.

Enough about myself, here are some really interesting things that will  make you say who knew?

I did not know!!!! 

This is why I like desserts so much...

Who knew?

This makes me sad, I wish I could end people smoking especially women.

No wonder they are so slow, they are sleeping.

Who remembers teachers always saying "bring a number 2 pencil?" Maybe I wanted to bring the number 1 pencil.

All I can say on this is, why the hell would you let a cockroach get that close and why is it not dead?

I loved searching through so many facts, I feel smarter already..

Zachary's dentist appointment yesterday went great, perfect check up.  

I ran yesterday, and I felt a little sore but I'll take any progress at this point.

Do you have any interesting who knews that you want to share?

Did you know any of these facts?

How is your week going?